MY DAD THE BASTARD

So, my parents are arguing for like the 84368481468016410017401th time and I’m pretty over it. I mean, go get your sh*t together somewhere else, okay, not in front of your f*cking children. My little brother’s currently screaming his lungs out and the whole house is just a big f*cking mess. My Godzilla mother is chucking china around like its worth nothing and my dad’s just sitting there, laughing, watching this sh*t go down and thinking that none of this is his fault. He enjoys seeing my mum lose it and us struggling.

 

Sometimes, I think he gets a thrill from seeing us in despair. I just wanna walk up to him and punch his face. How can he think that he can just treat his family like sh*t? I mean, what kind of dad does that? Going gambling every single night for the last week and throwing away money that we need to pay off the bills; the money that my mum worked her ass off for. And he thinks that he can just waltz in and out, demanding $1000 each time?

 

He’s honestly so stupid, wasting money he could be spending on a family vacations, buying something for his loving wife, who always manages to forgive him, put up with his sh*t and get him out of it. I honestly don’t understand how she can still see him as a good person. I know that if it were me, I would’ve left ages ago. I mean I just don’t understand how she can still love him, giving him another chance over and over again. Why, I always ask her. Why mum? I really don’t understand.

 

Another thing I don’t understand is why my dad completely changes around his friends. Whenever he’s around his rich friends, he dresses nicely, always paying for their extravagant dinners and offering the money he does not have to them. Who’s he trying to impress? They all know that he’s not well off at all. I mean, how can he be so blinded not to see that they’re laughing at him, not with him? The only person he’s lying to is himself; he’s not fooling anyone else.

 

He doesn’t have a job, can’t hold one for longer than 1 month; a failure at being a dad and a husband. He’s just a complete failure.

 

Well, I’m pretty sure that we’re in debt to the bank now, thanks to him and this’ll probably be my last post in a long time so this is me, signing over and out.

Expectations, Amy Chua and Mr Titner

I’M BACK AND I HAVE 5 FOLLOWERS NOW!!! People have been saying how fake or whatever I am, but honestly, I’m just ranting about life and letting everyone know about my sad sad life as a teenager living in Cabramatta. If you haven’t already realised, I’m Asian (DUH I LIVE IN CABRAMATTA) and with being Asian, comes the typical pressure of the stereotypical Asian parents. Except it isn’t a stereotype. The species of the Asian parent is very, very real – and dangerous.  

My mum is the typical tiger mom. Just imagine Amy Chua with a bowl cut and you’ve got her. Seriously, everything that comes out of her mouth has something to do with ‘BUY ME HOUSE WHEN YOU GROW UP’. I’m sooooooo over it. I go to Cabramatta High School with a bunch of delinquents who graffiti ‘MR TITNER SUCKS’ on the wall then add a ‘BALLS’ to that a week later. The teachers pick their noses with cigarettes. There is no chance that I’m getting out of this hole with an ATAR over 80.

I’ve constantly been a ‘disappointment’ to my parents. I didn’t make it to OC, didn’t make it to selective and I’m not even in the top 50 of my year. Why? Well I just wasn’t born to be a future Einstein, or Julia Gillard. Some people just don’t get the genes. Unfortunately that happened to be me L. My Mum thinks that I’m going to magically ace my HSC and earn her heaps of money. I’ll work as hard as I can, but I’ve accepted that I’ll never be successful.  

All I want in my life is to be happy, and to me that doesn’t mean slaving away in a repetitive office job or cutting people open every day. I want a job that I can enjoy, and not just a boring one that earns me $1000 an hour. The money you earn doesn’t equal the level of your success….right?

Neighbours, Spoilt Kids and Racist Dads

Hi everyone! So this is going to be the first of (hopefully) a long series of blogs which give you an insight into my life….Basically this blog is probably going to suck, but I just want to rant about my life experiences to people who actually listen. Or read.

A few months ago, this large group of black people moved in next door. There are so many of them I don’t even know how they fit inside the house (we live in a townhouse and each unit is like 3m², yes I live in a hut). I don’t remember any of their faces though. Anyways, the little kids are really nice and they play with my little brother all the time so it’s not like they’re bad people.

So one day I go outside to see one of the black kids approaching Kane (my other neighbour’s 4-year old son who’s Asian and extremely spoilt). The black kid was like ‘KANE DO YOU WANT TO PLAY SOCCER WITH ME???’and Kane was like, ‘MY DADDY SAID I CAN’T PLAY WITH YOU’. Kane’s older sister Katie (aged 6) added, ‘YEH WE’RE NOT ALLOWED TO PLAY WITH YOU!!!’ Then me, being the VERY caring person I am asked Kane and Katie, ‘Why doesn’t he let you play with them?’

They giggled and whispered quietly into my ear,‘because….THEY’RE BLACK…’ and continued giggling.

The only time I was more shocked was when I found out that Heath Ledger was Australian (shut up). Their father was racist! I thought that since it was the 21^st century now, no one would be racist anymore and that humanity would have finally learnt from the mistakes that we'd made in history. All I could do was encourage Katie and Kane to play with the little black kid. They eventually did, until their father came out and scolded them for ‘playing with the black boy’. I was disgusted with how people actually still thought and acted like this, especially their father, who i thought was a well-mannered man. I guess he's just like any other typical asian.

Katie and Kane are probably going to go to school, see lots of other black kids and not playing with them because of what their father has‘taught’ them. I think that that's pretty sad, considering that they're only children but already, their viewpoint on other races has probably changed. I hope they dont grow up to be like their dad, although i think that the process has already started :/

Haha well thats all I really wanted to rant about... LOL.